TURNING INTO PROBLEMS...(FICTION)

She met me when All was well and left me when All was not well. This is how I understood the difference between All is well and All is not well. That taught me how to handle the situations and strengthened my aspirations and ambitions...It was not the end of life. It was the beginning of life without her. It seemed to be difficult in the beginning and became more challenging...the university campus reminded me all the moments that I spent with her...the Old and the Open Canteen...the Department of English...the hotels on the Ferguson road, Sarasbag and many other places that we had visited together troubled me in such a way that I could never visit those places again.

This was the time when everything, that I did, turned into failure…it frustrated me in the beginning but became habitual later on and I started to console myself whenever I got failure. In fact the phase of failure made me enough strong to face the situation and changed me drastically. I saw people raising fingers at my talent…I saw people criticizing me…I saw people commenting my actions and I saw people talking about whatever I was doing. I did nothing except listening to that and observing the things. All those things made me restless…It made me more frustrated...it made to think of myself..it made me to doubt my potential…and more than that it lessened my confidence which I had for a long time in life and from that time it never returned.

It all started when I was dreaming of a bright career ahead. Whatever I dreamt, it never happened. It did hurt me a lot. Nobody could understand the situation I had been going through. A moment came when I stopped dreaming and instead started focusing on the things that I have and neglecting the things that I do not have. I knew that time is the biggest heal. I just wanted to pass the time and to wait for the right time. Destiny…very difficult to understand…It gives you everything when you do not want and it takes everything away from you when you actually need it. ..People again may argue that destiny is our hands…but it is not…For a long time I used to think that I have been controlling my life…actually it was not…It was being controlled…I do not know “WHO” was doing it. There is no specific answer for this. 

Now I think that certain things are important in life. It teaches a lot. It makes us conscious. It makes us understand that:

FAILURE IS NOT THE STEPPING STONE TO SUCCESS. SUCCESS IS ALWAYS THE SUCCESS and FAILURE IS ALWAYS THE FAILURE.

There is no point even if we get success later on. And it may not be the right time. We lose the important things in the process. This is an important lesson that I learnt from failure.

I never understand how the life changes so suddenly and how it takes a different turn only to put you in problems. It may not be a problem but an opportunity for some people.

I do not know how she came in my life when I did not want anybody. She not only came in life but became an important part of my life and at the crucial moment, when I had become habitual of her, she left me with no reasons and I did not ask explanation.

I understood that SUCCESS AND FAILURE cannot be together. They are opposite. And do not try to bring it together.

Sachin Bhagat