She met me when All was
well and left me when All was not well. This is
how I understood the difference between All is well and All is not well. That
taught me how to handle the situations and strengthened my aspirations and
ambitions...It was not the end of life. It was the beginning of life without
her. It seemed to be difficult in the beginning and became more challenging...the
university campus reminded me all the moments that I spent with her...the Old
and the Open Canteen...the Department of English...the hotels on the Ferguson
road, Sarasbag and many other places that we had visited together troubled me
in such a way that I could never visit those places again.
This was the time when everything, that I did, turned into
failure…it frustrated me in the beginning but became habitual later on and I
started to console myself whenever I got failure. In fact the phase of failure
made me enough strong to face the situation and changed me drastically. I saw people raising fingers at my talent…I saw people
criticizing me…I saw people commenting my actions and I saw people talking
about whatever I was doing. I did nothing except listening to that and
observing the things. All those things made me restless…It made me more
frustrated...it made to think of myself..it made me to doubt my potential…and
more than that it lessened my confidence which I had for a long time in life and
from that time it never returned.
It all started when I was dreaming of a bright career ahead.
Whatever I dreamt, it never happened. It did hurt me a lot. Nobody could
understand the situation I had been going through. A moment came when I stopped
dreaming and instead started focusing on the things that I have and neglecting
the things that I do not have. I knew that time is the biggest heal. I just
wanted to pass the time and to wait for the right time. Destiny…very difficult
to understand…It gives you everything when you do not want and it takes
everything away from you when you actually need it. ..People again may argue
that destiny is our hands…but it is not…For a long time I used to think that I
have been controlling my life…actually it was not…It was being controlled…I do
not know “WHO” was doing it. There is no specific answer for this.
Now I think that certain things are important in life. It
teaches a lot. It makes us conscious. It makes us understand that:
FAILURE IS NOT THE STEPPING STONE TO SUCCESS. SUCCESS IS ALWAYS
THE SUCCESS and FAILURE IS ALWAYS THE FAILURE.
There is no point even if we get success later on. And it may
not be the right time. We lose the important things in the process. This is an
important lesson that I learnt from failure.
I never understand how the life changes so suddenly and how it
takes a different turn only to put you in problems. It may not be a problem but
an opportunity for some people.
I do not know how she came in my life when I did not want
anybody. She not only came in life but became an important part of my life and
at the crucial moment, when I had become habitual of her, she left me with no
reasons and I did not ask explanation.
I understood that SUCCESS AND FAILURE cannot be together. They
are opposite. And do not try to bring it together.
Sachin Bhagat
